Full-Blown Suffering: A Personal Fight With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest bizarre treatments for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Joshua Preston
Joshua Preston

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